Post by Jacob Black on Aug 15, 2013 14:16:52 GMT -5
-Jake woke up in his bed with Billy shouting him down for breakfast, since Ness and Jake had split Billy had watched Jake's eating very closely. Banging on the floor to let his dad know he heard, as the words that would escape his mouth wouldn't be words of aprecation. Jake's dream wasn't a pleasant one..... Though he spent 5 minutes mulling over what had happened in his dream.
Nessie was in the forest her physical features where solid, however when Jake went to hold her he couldn't get to her. There was no flesh on flesh to feel just empty space, many times Jake tried with no different end result. Each the same ending of Jake seeing Ness but not able to hold her or have her close.
The dream was just a constant loop, Jake trying to hold on to what he couldn't have. It was a meaning to the past few months, Jake had still been hoping that some how, some way they would find a way to be together. With that thought Jake couldn't believe it!! There was no ache in his chest no tightening of his throat. This was the first time since Nessie had left, thoughts of having lost her completely. That Jake hadn't almost faced one of the panic attacks he had seen Charlie have. Was this a turning point in his life?!?! Was the imprinting working how it should "He shall be what she wants him to be.... A brother, friend, protector or lover" Was this now a realization of he was no longer a lover, but a friend? Was he ok with that? So many questions to be answered. Yet maybe he was ok with that, it was time to live life for himself. No more worrying about Aro or the other Vamps that came for the Cullen's, just to protect the people of Forks with his pack.
Meeting Bella had changed Jake's life, forced decisions that Jake wasn't sure were for the best. Getting Forks involved in things that could have been avoided, yet things had changed yet again. Maybe this was the way it had always meant to be, life had a funny way of things. Jake had to believe that this was good, that he was in for a better way of life. Sure imprinting had a hold on him still but anything more than a friend..... Jake no longer thought that was possible, to much had been done, to much time had past. Jake had been a strong believer in fate, maybe he had to go through all this pain to make him the man he would become.
Stretching in his bed he felt lighter, almost a new person. One who wanted to find himself again, make new memories explore new things, feel happy once again, not being stuck on auto pilot. From a young age he was with Ness, before that wanting Bella. Jake had never really dated anyone else, meeting new people wouldn't be such a bad thing. First thing was first they had to have a pack night, one where they were all off patrol. Sat with a cool beer and one of Emily's muffins, with that his stomach growled with the beast inside him.
Breakfast first then to tell the pack of a day off.....-
Nessie was in the forest her physical features where solid, however when Jake went to hold her he couldn't get to her. There was no flesh on flesh to feel just empty space, many times Jake tried with no different end result. Each the same ending of Jake seeing Ness but not able to hold her or have her close.
The dream was just a constant loop, Jake trying to hold on to what he couldn't have. It was a meaning to the past few months, Jake had still been hoping that some how, some way they would find a way to be together. With that thought Jake couldn't believe it!! There was no ache in his chest no tightening of his throat. This was the first time since Nessie had left, thoughts of having lost her completely. That Jake hadn't almost faced one of the panic attacks he had seen Charlie have. Was this a turning point in his life?!?! Was the imprinting working how it should "He shall be what she wants him to be.... A brother, friend, protector or lover" Was this now a realization of he was no longer a lover, but a friend? Was he ok with that? So many questions to be answered. Yet maybe he was ok with that, it was time to live life for himself. No more worrying about Aro or the other Vamps that came for the Cullen's, just to protect the people of Forks with his pack.
Meeting Bella had changed Jake's life, forced decisions that Jake wasn't sure were for the best. Getting Forks involved in things that could have been avoided, yet things had changed yet again. Maybe this was the way it had always meant to be, life had a funny way of things. Jake had to believe that this was good, that he was in for a better way of life. Sure imprinting had a hold on him still but anything more than a friend..... Jake no longer thought that was possible, to much had been done, to much time had past. Jake had been a strong believer in fate, maybe he had to go through all this pain to make him the man he would become.
Stretching in his bed he felt lighter, almost a new person. One who wanted to find himself again, make new memories explore new things, feel happy once again, not being stuck on auto pilot. From a young age he was with Ness, before that wanting Bella. Jake had never really dated anyone else, meeting new people wouldn't be such a bad thing. First thing was first they had to have a pack night, one where they were all off patrol. Sat with a cool beer and one of Emily's muffins, with that his stomach growled with the beast inside him.
Breakfast first then to tell the pack of a day off.....-
