Post by Jacob Black on Aug 10, 2013 18:10:07 GMT -5
-Walking the forest bare foot to feel the damp moss beneath his feet, the texture of the leaves as they crisped under his feet. With the slow pace through the forest, animals moved, sang and looked towards him with wonder, Was he a threat or just some average human walking the forest. The smell of the forest brought many memories with the scent. Some he wish he could forget, yet they weighed him down! Thoughts of Nessie.
Sitting on a stump of a blown down old oak, Jake let the thoughts flood through his mind. The night he was prepared to kill her as a new born, dropping to his knees as he imprinted on his one true love. To the night they said goodbye with passionate love. He had been mislead that Nessie was his! His forever. In believing that, believing fate! he was now more broken than he had or ever will be. Jake would have no love of his own, no family to speak of. Jacob would forever be just that.... Jacob!
For the first time in weeks he wanted to hurt, needed to hurt!! Jake needed to feel some kind of emotion. He had turned himself off to the world, life outside of Alpha and pack was just non existent. Seth, Embry and Quil were constantly asking Jake places. Hell even Leah had a try at the whole "We should hang" crap, yet nothing interested him anymore. He has let Nessie go for the pack, so he was going to do nothing but PACK. The pack was all he had left now, his brothers, his family. Tears ran down his face of the loss he would have to live with, not only did he give up Nessie. Jake gave up his future, what nature and god set out mankind to do.... make a family, one to call his own. His own little bubble in which to protect and provide for. Something to come home to after the day was done. *Breathing deeply as his chest began to tighten* Another tear escaped from Jake's now sore eyes, he just sat there and cried many tears till Jake could gather the will power to carry on without HIS NESSIE.
Forever lost to him..... But not forgotten.
Sitting on a stump of a blown down old oak, Jake let the thoughts flood through his mind. The night he was prepared to kill her as a new born, dropping to his knees as he imprinted on his one true love. To the night they said goodbye with passionate love. He had been mislead that Nessie was his! His forever. In believing that, believing fate! he was now more broken than he had or ever will be. Jake would have no love of his own, no family to speak of. Jacob would forever be just that.... Jacob!
For the first time in weeks he wanted to hurt, needed to hurt!! Jake needed to feel some kind of emotion. He had turned himself off to the world, life outside of Alpha and pack was just non existent. Seth, Embry and Quil were constantly asking Jake places. Hell even Leah had a try at the whole "We should hang" crap, yet nothing interested him anymore. He has let Nessie go for the pack, so he was going to do nothing but PACK. The pack was all he had left now, his brothers, his family. Tears ran down his face of the loss he would have to live with, not only did he give up Nessie. Jake gave up his future, what nature and god set out mankind to do.... make a family, one to call his own. His own little bubble in which to protect and provide for. Something to come home to after the day was done. *Breathing deeply as his chest began to tighten* Another tear escaped from Jake's now sore eyes, he just sat there and cried many tears till Jake could gather the will power to carry on without HIS NESSIE.
Forever lost to him..... But not forgotten.
