Too many goodbyes

[Jacob Black]

-He had said goodbye to, too many people in his life. After his mothers death, Jake hadn't wanted to say goodbye to anyone else he loved, Here he was losing what felt like a second family, Esme had been so nice and welcoming, doc had helped him when he was injured. Treating Jake like a member of his own, Alice although ditzy was his favorite of the Cullen's. Okay Jasper he hadn't had all that much time with but he was a good guy, Barbie (Rose) well she was just fun to tease, Emmett the guy was a legend with the wise cracks. Jake would miss them all, he was loosing his best friend. Even out of all the pack his closest friend would was Bella, no one could hold the bond they had between them. Even Edward couldn't understand it. Edward that was another thing! what the fuck was with that manly embrace! Jacob had never felt that having Edward out of his life would give him any reason to be effected by it, obviously there was some sort of connection over the years. All things considered nothing hurt like saying goodbye to Ness..... That was the killer, thinking of days without her close by. The times that will pass at night without feeling Nessie next to him, missing the skin contact and physical connection. Sometimes they could lay there looking at the stars, saying nothing at all, yet saying everything with silent words.

The only thing he had left for him was his dad, his pack and Charlie. For the sake of Bella and Nessie, Charlie would always be okay, Jake would make sure of that. It was all he could do, plus it would help him to have something to take his mind of things when not on patrol. Wiping a single tear from his face, he didn't think he had anymore in him. Jake vowed to himself he would not shed another tear on this, that to get over this he simply had to put it behind him. If only it was that easy......-