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Post by Bella Cullen on Mar 23, 2013 14:35:43 GMT -5
The spring flowers were in bloom, the air smelled of pollen and nectar. The flowers sweet smell of freshness filled her nose as she sat in the field of lavender and yellow colored flowers. It painted a great picture of scenery. She'd been able to avoid everyone for the last few days but knew it was only a matter of time before she had to face them. She was so ashamed of what happened. Carlisle had called her and she just listened to his words about it happening to the best of them and that everything would be fine. She knew better, nothing would be the same again. Her eyes were a crazy mixture of crimson gold with flecks of red as she'd tasted Mike's blood. She had never wanted something so bad before, not even Edward. It was a different type of want, a need, a hunger. Primal instinct to get what she wanted at all costs.
Blood
Rosalie was right. Looking down at the flower in her hand she closed her eyes and listened to the sounds around her as the wind blew her hair back.
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Post by Edward Cullen on Mar 23, 2013 15:03:09 GMT -5
Edward had been seeking Bella out for hours now, searching every place that he had thought possible that she would go. He had traveled to their usual hunting grounds, but with their diet of animals becoming far scarce it was almost impossible to hunt at all. He knew that Bella had been avoiding him since the incident at the high school reunion after he had attacked Mike Newton with his vile and intrusive thoughts about his wife. He had acted on impulse and let his actions get the better of him as he had caused Bella's outburst to the sight and smell of blood, a dangerous elixir that tempted them to drive all of his family over the edge.
It was then he thought about where else would Bella have gone too, he took off into a tremendous speed with the thought of only Bella in his that encouraged him to go faster. After what seemed like minutes he stopped on the edge of the meadow, he halted to a sudden stop as he saw Bella in the middle of the field surrounded by the blossoming and blooming flowers, their scents swirling around him that reminded him of the day that he had first brought Bella here when she was once human.
He slowly walked across to her, the dirt shifting under the weight of his feet, the cracking of the twigs under steps as he edged closer to Bella.
"Bella?" he whispered
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Post by Bella Cullen on Mar 23, 2013 15:07:51 GMT -5
Her eyes remained closed as she heard and smelled him before he spoke. His sweet scent that always made her head swim, she smiled softly at his voice and opened her eyes slowly, looking down at her hands and letting the wind take the petals she'd picked off the flower. "Edward..." She acknowledged his presence without turning around. Not knowing what to say or do since acting like nothing happened was not the obvious choice.
After a pause she quickly stood and turned to face him. The wind blowing against her making her hair flow in the breeze. "I don't know what to say." She told him the truth, she had no idea what to say. Not wanting to press him for answers since he didn't seem to want to go into details when she asked that night as they left in a hurry from the reunion.
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Post by Edward Cullen on Mar 23, 2013 15:18:15 GMT -5
Edward didn't need to have Jasper's ability to know how she was feelings, it was clear for him to see, as he felt the same very way, everything had happened because of his idiotic thinking that they had gone to the reunion in the first place. He knew that she was feeling guilty, but if it was not for his actions they would not be in this position in the first place.
"Bella...You don't have to say anything. I know" he said, his voice cracking.
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Post by Bella Cullen on Mar 23, 2013 15:22:44 GMT -5
She rushed into his arms after he spoke, something inside of her reassured her that he did not hate her or blame her. It was the unspoken word of it all, but she knew, she knew deep down he was going to bring up moving again. Something she wasn't sure she could do. Not yet anyway, not after she promised Charlie she wouldn't leave. She promised Renesmee she wouldn't take her away from Jake.
"What have I done, Edward? I put us all in danger, I should have resisted, been strong enough." She looked up at him and then away so he wouldn't see her eyes and how they were different.
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Post by Edward Cullen on Mar 23, 2013 15:36:34 GMT -5
Edward eloped her into his arms as she rested against his frame, he rested his chin on her head. He knew that she was overwhelmed with everything, the taste of human blood can be seductive and lead you down a spiral that was very hard to return from, he had experienced it for himself as he fought to get were he was now.
"This is not your fault Bella. I should have known that going would be hard on you, on everyone" he raised her eyes to look at him "Do not blame yourself for my mistake Bella" he finished.
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Post by Bella Cullen on Mar 23, 2013 15:48:56 GMT -5
She shook her head and then felt him raise her head to look at him. Her eyes looking into his as she sighed. "Are you ever going to tell me why? What made you snap like that? What did you hear?" Bella knew he was keeping something from her and him not wanting to talk about it made her worry and wonder more.
"I need to know, I've never seen you like that." Her arm was draped over his shoulder as her fingers ran deftly across his neck, looking up at him and waiting.
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Post by Edward Cullen on Mar 23, 2013 15:58:09 GMT -5
Edward could still hear every single word that Mike Newton had repeated in his mind, the words curling on the edge of his tongue, but he did not want to speak them. The words only angered him further and he despised the words to his gut.
"It's nothing. Nothing for you to worry about. Forget about it, there are things we need to talk about Bella" he did not want Mike Newton to the center of their conversation, even the name made Edward angry.
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Post by Bella Cullen on Mar 23, 2013 16:01:26 GMT -5
He still wouldn't say it, fine. But she had a right to know, as his wife she had a right to know why he snapped on a friend. Stepping back from him and dropping her arm to her side, she looked to the side and down. "I know what you're going to say." She snapped her head back in his direction. "You want me to just pick up and leave again? We were gone for five years, it killed Charlie not to see us. Renesmee and Jacob, do we just split them up or leave our daughter behind? I can't Edward. I don't...I don't know what you want me to do."
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Post by Edward Cullen on Mar 23, 2013 16:17:56 GMT -5
Edward listened to Bella's outbursts, he knew that it hurt Bella to be away from Charlie. He saw it on her face the five years that they were away, but Carlisle was right, they had to move, the animals were becoming scarce and they had been in Forks too long.
"Bella. We have no choice. Its time for us to leave. We risk the Volturi if we are discovered what we are" he wasn't sure how to answer about their daughter and Jacob. Jacob could not leave his pack, nor could he come with them.
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Post by Bella Cullen on Mar 23, 2013 16:22:51 GMT -5
"I...know that. I just...there is no other way is there? I have to leave everyone behind...and that may include our own daughter. Can you really do that? Can we?" She knelt down in the flowers and plucked one from the ground looking at the petal shapes and sighing. "I know we have to do this...just give me time to talk to Charlie. At least give me that?"
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Post by Edward Cullen on Mar 23, 2013 16:28:42 GMT -5
He couldn't even think about leaving Renesmee in Forks without them, that was not an option that he was willing to think about, this was something that they all needed to discuss as soon as possible as Carlisle and Esme were already in the process of making plans for moving arrangements.
"We will cross that bridge when we come to it. But you need to speak to Charlie today Bella. Carlisle is making arrangements to move as soon as possible. Next week" he finished, knowing that next week for Bella would be too soon.
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Post by Bella Cullen on Mar 23, 2013 16:35:10 GMT -5
Swallowing hard she knew a weeks time would be short, a weeks time would come fast and before she knew it they would be gone. Away from everyone they loved. There were possibilities of visitation but that she wasn't sure of considering what had happened at the reunion. She nodded and stood, turning to face him. "I understand."
The pained look on Charlie's face as she told him they had to leave and possibly never return was etched in her mind. She remembered how he begged her not to go, not to leave him. It would be like deja vu and if she just left without goodbye and never got to see him again it would kill her inside.
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Post by Edward Cullen on Mar 23, 2013 16:50:09 GMT -5
"I think it may be best if you visit Charlie alone. He's still not a big fan of me and I think it would be best if you speak to him" he finished.
Edward knew that having to leave Charlie would be hard for Bella, Charlie was all Bella had left in Forks and leaving would be hard on her. But it was time to leave. They couldn't risk staying in Forks, not with the risk of another incident that could involve the Volturi.
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Post by Bella Cullen on Mar 23, 2013 16:54:35 GMT -5
Bella nodded and looked down. "I'll call him tonight, then tell him tomorrow." The realization hit her and she knew it would be difficult, the conversation they would have. But in her heart she knew it had to be done. "I'm sorry....about everything." She looked up at him and smiled half heartily to make him think she was okay.
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