Post by Edward Cullen on Sept 14, 2012 16:27:39 GMT -5
January 1, 2005
Charlie Swan has told everyone that will listen that his daughter is arriving on January 17th. He is so excited; his moustache has been known to actually twitch into a smile as he speaks about her. It's all I can do to keep an impassive expression on my face as the students and townspeople of Forks discuss Bella's arrival. They've only been looking forward to it for a couple of months…I've been anticipating it for thirty-six years.
Jasper and Alice brought a couple of articles of clothing and towels from Phoenix in November. They actually stole them from a hamper at the laundry where Bella was doing the wash for her family. They compensated Bella by slipping a $100 bill into the jeans left behind in her clothes basket.
Before their return, Alice had placed each bit of clothing and the towels into separate Ziploc bags to keep the scent as fresh on each piece as possible. I had grabbed and shredded the first hand cloth that she handed me before I even knew what hit me. To say that Bella's scent was overwhelming is a huge understatement. After that first attempt, Jasper and Emmett would hold me as Alice approached with the scent filled cloth.
Eventually I did become acclimated enough to her scent that I could take the fresh bit of cloth and hold it to my nose without losing control. Alice has assured me that the strength of my decision to keep Bella safe is what will keep her safe. The burn in my throat has never left as I smell her scent, but it is a comfort to me, a reminder that I need to be careful with her and always be aware of how much she means to me.
Jasper and Alice had also brought a roll of film back from Arizona. It was filled with pictures taken of Bella as she moved around the school, her yard and while she was out shopping. I've got them in an album and look at her lovely face as I smell her clothing. It feels quite stalkerish, but my family assures me that this is the best thing to do. All of them want me to succeed in becoming acclimated to her scent. None of them want the massacre that Alice foresaw. As long as my decision holds firm, things appear to be on track.
We know she's arriving in town on the 17th. Jasper and Alice will leave on the 15th to retrieve some fresh articles of clothing for me. Emmett and Rose will slip into the house after her arrival and take something for me smell before I meet her at school on the 18th.
I'm sure that I'll be able to handle it. I'm firm in my decision. Alice says things look good. It's hard to believe that in days I will be meeting the woman who has owned me for so many years. Everyone has given me advice on this first meeting. I've chosen to ignore Emmett's, but have taken everyone else's into consideration.
They are telling me to go slow, to be myself. I'm willing to give it my best effort. The prize is worth it. I'm excited, and terrified, in anticipation of the moment when I see Bella for the first time without the buffer of a photograph or a vampiric memory. My heart is already so involved with her; she holds my thoughts every moment of every day. I know that she doesn't know me from Adam, but I have to trust Alice in this. She wouldn't have seen our wedding if there were nothing possible from Bella's point of view.
In a matter of days I will be seeing Bella for the first time.
I can't wait.
Charlie Swan has told everyone that will listen that his daughter is arriving on January 17th. He is so excited; his moustache has been known to actually twitch into a smile as he speaks about her. It's all I can do to keep an impassive expression on my face as the students and townspeople of Forks discuss Bella's arrival. They've only been looking forward to it for a couple of months…I've been anticipating it for thirty-six years.
Jasper and Alice brought a couple of articles of clothing and towels from Phoenix in November. They actually stole them from a hamper at the laundry where Bella was doing the wash for her family. They compensated Bella by slipping a $100 bill into the jeans left behind in her clothes basket.
Before their return, Alice had placed each bit of clothing and the towels into separate Ziploc bags to keep the scent as fresh on each piece as possible. I had grabbed and shredded the first hand cloth that she handed me before I even knew what hit me. To say that Bella's scent was overwhelming is a huge understatement. After that first attempt, Jasper and Emmett would hold me as Alice approached with the scent filled cloth.
Eventually I did become acclimated enough to her scent that I could take the fresh bit of cloth and hold it to my nose without losing control. Alice has assured me that the strength of my decision to keep Bella safe is what will keep her safe. The burn in my throat has never left as I smell her scent, but it is a comfort to me, a reminder that I need to be careful with her and always be aware of how much she means to me.
Jasper and Alice had also brought a roll of film back from Arizona. It was filled with pictures taken of Bella as she moved around the school, her yard and while she was out shopping. I've got them in an album and look at her lovely face as I smell her clothing. It feels quite stalkerish, but my family assures me that this is the best thing to do. All of them want me to succeed in becoming acclimated to her scent. None of them want the massacre that Alice foresaw. As long as my decision holds firm, things appear to be on track.
We know she's arriving in town on the 17th. Jasper and Alice will leave on the 15th to retrieve some fresh articles of clothing for me. Emmett and Rose will slip into the house after her arrival and take something for me smell before I meet her at school on the 18th.
I'm sure that I'll be able to handle it. I'm firm in my decision. Alice says things look good. It's hard to believe that in days I will be meeting the woman who has owned me for so many years. Everyone has given me advice on this first meeting. I've chosen to ignore Emmett's, but have taken everyone else's into consideration.
They are telling me to go slow, to be myself. I'm willing to give it my best effort. The prize is worth it. I'm excited, and terrified, in anticipation of the moment when I see Bella for the first time without the buffer of a photograph or a vampiric memory. My heart is already so involved with her; she holds my thoughts every moment of every day. I know that she doesn't know me from Adam, but I have to trust Alice in this. She wouldn't have seen our wedding if there were nothing possible from Bella's point of view.
In a matter of days I will be seeing Bella for the first time.
I can't wait.