Post by Edward Cullen on Nov 26, 2012 15:31:02 GMT -5
A couple of days ago I had to tell Bella that we were going camping as Alice said it was going to be sunny for awhile. After saying that she would miss me, she also told me that she, Angela and several other students would be going to First Beach on the 5th. We spoke briefly on the phone that night. There was some hesitation in her voice and it took me awhile to make her comfortable again. I need to find out why she was so cautious after her trip there. It makes me wonder if any of the Quileute Pack was there. The treaty specifies that they can't say anything about us, but I really can't imagine what else might have happened.
Actually, one more idea has occurred to me, but dwelling on it makes me see red and Jasper has cautioned me against letting those feelings out. I am worried that one of those boys from school might have done something to offend or hurt Bella. I am going to have to try to find out what happened during her day at the beach. Maybe I can see it in Angela's mind.
She'd sounded disappointed when I told her that I wouldn't be able to see her for another couple of days. Her sadness over my continued absence helped ease my pain too. Not seeing her is causing me to feel exceedingly anxious.
Apparently my stalker tendencies have come out to play at full force. I have watched her at school from the tree line, but that isn't nearly close enough. Emmett continues to laugh at me. He suggested Ninja clothing and I even found an entire ensemble on my bed this morning. Alice told him in no uncertain terms that I would not be wearing that, not even to lurk in the shadows.
At least there is no more snow and ice to worry about. At the end of January Alice had come flying into the house after hunting with Jasper. She had seen a vision of snow falling in the predawn hours and black ice in the parking lot at the high school. None of us had wanted the vision that we had seen on January 25, 1981 to happen.
Rose had immediately decided to make a trip to Tyler Crowley's house. She'd said she would pull a spark plug loose so that his van wouldn't start. Emmett and Jasper had taken Em's jeep to pick up a huge supply of sand and salt. They were going to prepare the parking lot so that no ice could even form.
Charlie Swan is my new hero. He was up at the crack of dawn putting chains on Bella's truck.
Alice didn't see any accident happening as we made our preparations. Although that reassured me, I was waiting as her noisy truck lumbered into the parking lot. And I was standing right there to open her door, accept her smile and view the new chains on the tires with her. She had shaken her head and expressed her appreciation of her father. My family was poised at different places around the lot just in case something untoward were to happen.
Emmett and Jasper's sand and salt had done their job and no vans, cars, trucks or skateboards careened out of control toward the light of my existence. We all breathed a sigh of relief as I walked her into the school.
Once again I thanked Alice for sharing her gift with me. She'd pictured a new pair of $800 shoes and I agreed almost before her choice was made. She'd laughed beside me and Bella had looked confused. Alice had told her that she had just remembered something that was funny, but unimportant.
Bella also mentioned last night that she had made plans to go to shopping in Port Angeles with Angela tomorrow. The school is having a dance, ladies' choice, on March 12. We've already discussed the fact that if she were to go, she'd ask me, but she doesn't want to go at all.
I haven't told her that at least three of the boys at school are plotting to get her alone to ask her if she would ask them to the dance. Jasper, Emmett and Alice have worked diligently to keep them away from her so far. It's not that I want to take away her choice in the matter, but she's told me that she'd be mortified if any of the boys approached her. She's seen a couple of them waylay unsuspecting girls in the hallways. Her face was red on their behalf and I don't want her to be uncomfortable if I can help it.
We've already made plans to do something else instead and she's said that that will be more fun than a silly school dance.
I plan to take her to my meadow...that vision from my birthday keeps coming to mind. Maybe I'll be brave enough to show her the real me.
Maybe...or maybe not.
Alice can't tell me when the best time to tell her would be. I guess I haven't made a firm enough decision. And I won't now, either. I just have to play it by ear and try to follow my heart and Bella's clues. She is very hard to read, but I like to think that I'm getting better at reading her.
If our visit to the meadow is a success, I think that I'll ask her if she'd like to spend the evening with my family. As I write this, I hear Alice screaming downstairs. That must mean that we'll be returning here after our visit to the meadow.
None of my siblings are going to the dance either. I'm pleased that I won't have to share her with anyone else during the day. I might be able to share her with the family that evening. Esme is nearly vibrating in her eagerness to meet this girl that she's known for decades. She can't wait to see the woman who has brought me to life.
Maybe, if I am really lucky, I can convince Bella to dance with me later, at my house.
Actually, one more idea has occurred to me, but dwelling on it makes me see red and Jasper has cautioned me against letting those feelings out. I am worried that one of those boys from school might have done something to offend or hurt Bella. I am going to have to try to find out what happened during her day at the beach. Maybe I can see it in Angela's mind.
She'd sounded disappointed when I told her that I wouldn't be able to see her for another couple of days. Her sadness over my continued absence helped ease my pain too. Not seeing her is causing me to feel exceedingly anxious.
Apparently my stalker tendencies have come out to play at full force. I have watched her at school from the tree line, but that isn't nearly close enough. Emmett continues to laugh at me. He suggested Ninja clothing and I even found an entire ensemble on my bed this morning. Alice told him in no uncertain terms that I would not be wearing that, not even to lurk in the shadows.
At least there is no more snow and ice to worry about. At the end of January Alice had come flying into the house after hunting with Jasper. She had seen a vision of snow falling in the predawn hours and black ice in the parking lot at the high school. None of us had wanted the vision that we had seen on January 25, 1981 to happen.
Rose had immediately decided to make a trip to Tyler Crowley's house. She'd said she would pull a spark plug loose so that his van wouldn't start. Emmett and Jasper had taken Em's jeep to pick up a huge supply of sand and salt. They were going to prepare the parking lot so that no ice could even form.
Charlie Swan is my new hero. He was up at the crack of dawn putting chains on Bella's truck.
Alice didn't see any accident happening as we made our preparations. Although that reassured me, I was waiting as her noisy truck lumbered into the parking lot. And I was standing right there to open her door, accept her smile and view the new chains on the tires with her. She had shaken her head and expressed her appreciation of her father. My family was poised at different places around the lot just in case something untoward were to happen.
Emmett and Jasper's sand and salt had done their job and no vans, cars, trucks or skateboards careened out of control toward the light of my existence. We all breathed a sigh of relief as I walked her into the school.
Once again I thanked Alice for sharing her gift with me. She'd pictured a new pair of $800 shoes and I agreed almost before her choice was made. She'd laughed beside me and Bella had looked confused. Alice had told her that she had just remembered something that was funny, but unimportant.
Bella also mentioned last night that she had made plans to go to shopping in Port Angeles with Angela tomorrow. The school is having a dance, ladies' choice, on March 12. We've already discussed the fact that if she were to go, she'd ask me, but she doesn't want to go at all.
I haven't told her that at least three of the boys at school are plotting to get her alone to ask her if she would ask them to the dance. Jasper, Emmett and Alice have worked diligently to keep them away from her so far. It's not that I want to take away her choice in the matter, but she's told me that she'd be mortified if any of the boys approached her. She's seen a couple of them waylay unsuspecting girls in the hallways. Her face was red on their behalf and I don't want her to be uncomfortable if I can help it.
We've already made plans to do something else instead and she's said that that will be more fun than a silly school dance.
I plan to take her to my meadow...that vision from my birthday keeps coming to mind. Maybe I'll be brave enough to show her the real me.
Maybe...or maybe not.
Alice can't tell me when the best time to tell her would be. I guess I haven't made a firm enough decision. And I won't now, either. I just have to play it by ear and try to follow my heart and Bella's clues. She is very hard to read, but I like to think that I'm getting better at reading her.
If our visit to the meadow is a success, I think that I'll ask her if she'd like to spend the evening with my family. As I write this, I hear Alice screaming downstairs. That must mean that we'll be returning here after our visit to the meadow.
None of my siblings are going to the dance either. I'm pleased that I won't have to share her with anyone else during the day. I might be able to share her with the family that evening. Esme is nearly vibrating in her eagerness to meet this girl that she's known for decades. She can't wait to see the woman who has brought me to life.
Maybe, if I am really lucky, I can convince Bella to dance with me later, at my house.