Post by Bella Cullen on Sept 12, 2012 23:21:00 GMT -5
From the moment she realized she had missed her period, she knew. Something inside her clicked. Unsure that it could be really happening at first. Then....she felt it. The first time her little nudger moved inside of her small flat tummy. Looking into the mirror, confused on what to feel, what to think. She knew everything she was getting into with being with a vampire, and wanting to be turned. But this...this was not something she saw coming. Motherhood was something she figured she'd given up and sacrificed for her to be with Edward forever. Bella put off being turned so that she could experience a real human honeymoon, through and through.
Looking into the mirror, she stood there contemplating everything. Her heart leapt when she felt it again, almost as if it were responding to her. After speaking with Carlisle, she was pretty sure she was pregnant. She'd be a mother after all, and Edward...a vampire....a father....to their child. Their creation. Her heart sank when he said he'd have Carlisle get that "thing" out of her. What was he thinking...it wasn't a thing...it was her little nudger. The boy she dreamt about in her dreams the last few nights...the immortal child who laid on the pile of family members...her nightmare. But her nudger wouldn't be that way. She was convinced it would all work out as it always did. Fates existed for a reason. She knew her only hope was the last person in the world anyone would guess...Rosalie.
The only thing she could focus on was keeping EJ safe...Edward Jacob...she already had a name. In an instant her world was turned upside down. Edward had always been the negative one, but she...she looked on the brighter side of things. The whole way home she sat in silence, knowing her plan and thankful Edward could not hear her thoughts.
It had only been a week since being home, and she looked six months pregnant. Her belly protruding from her shirt, her pants under the growing mound. Her breasts were tender, the baby moved rapidly and felt like a toddler in there at times. Her little nudger was active. She looked at that as a good thing, the others not so much. Rosalie stayed by her side at all times. Alice was skeptical because her visions became unclear. Alice depended on her visions. Carlisle wanted to keep an open mind, and be hopeful as did most of the rest of the family. Edward...he was pained. Suffering knowing that with each violet turn of the unborn child it hurt her. He blamed himself, angry that he should have known the consequences.
Bella was afraid of what Jacob would say and was scared she'd lose him when he found out. As she laid there trying to stay still to avoid pain. Jacob had proven her wrong on many occasions and this would be one. He didn't like her choice, neither Edward...for once they agreed. Go figure.
When Jake was around, he made her feel content. It was magnetic, the feeling she had to him. When he was away she was uncomfortable and not whole. She rubbed her rounded belly when she was alone and sang to it, talked to it, and knew in her heart if she were to die for this child...it would be worth it. It would be her purpose. Edward would always have a piece of her.
Then, Edward heard his thoughts. Her little EJ loved her back. Her heart swelled to the size of the pacific as she listened to Edward speaking to her belly, happy to see him coming around. She laid cuddled in his arms as they spoke of possible futures. She was determined to fight till she couldn't fight any longer. The taste of human blood to her human taste buds were shockingly appealing. It was only a few years back when the smell of blood nauseated her. Rust...and salt....but now it had a different smell and taste. If that was what he needed, she'd do it. That became her whole diet. If Carlisle was successful in turning her at the last minute, she'd be used to blood at least.
CRACK! Everyone in the room heard it, as her feeble body stood weakly as she reached for the cup of blood. The sharpest pain she'd imagined washed over her like a thousand knives. Her spine had snapped and something in her stomach pained. She let out a muffled moan of pain as she felt her body going down. The only thought running in her head was not to fall on her belly. The next thing she knew she was being hauled into the medical room. "Get him out! Get him out now!!!!" She yelled as she moved her head side to side, fighting the pain. Morphine would not be an option. She felt the cut along her belly as Rose cut the incision, as a scream of pain shot from her mouth. Edward ripped through the hardened vampire like sac that held the child she gripped the sides of the bed with the little strength she had. It seemed like forever, but then.....{baby wails}
Bella sighed and looked around, her eyes hazy and glazed from the pain. Sweat beading her forehead and brow. "It's Renesmee..." His song like voice rang out over the cries. "Renesmee...." she whispered...."Renesmee" As she reached out for her child with weakened arms, smiling down at her beautiful angelic face. Then more pain, as Renesmee bit down on her breast. Edward took Renesmee back as Bella looked on proudly. They were parents....she was healthy and everything....would.....work.....out. Darkness...
Darkness and pain, lots of pain. She refused to cry out. Edward began to inject his venom into her body. She scratched and clawed at her face in her mind, but to the surface laid unresponsive and her heart began to slip. {thump...thump....thump.........thump...............thump.......} It was weak and faint barely beating as she felt the burn and fire run through her veins. Acid filling her throat and she just wanted it to end...let her die, changing her mind at the pain...NO She can't, she had to fight....fight for her....for Edward.....
And that's exactly what she did. Through it all she pushed through and came out on top, for the first time shining.
Looking into the mirror, she stood there contemplating everything. Her heart leapt when she felt it again, almost as if it were responding to her. After speaking with Carlisle, she was pretty sure she was pregnant. She'd be a mother after all, and Edward...a vampire....a father....to their child. Their creation. Her heart sank when he said he'd have Carlisle get that "thing" out of her. What was he thinking...it wasn't a thing...it was her little nudger. The boy she dreamt about in her dreams the last few nights...the immortal child who laid on the pile of family members...her nightmare. But her nudger wouldn't be that way. She was convinced it would all work out as it always did. Fates existed for a reason. She knew her only hope was the last person in the world anyone would guess...Rosalie.
The only thing she could focus on was keeping EJ safe...Edward Jacob...she already had a name. In an instant her world was turned upside down. Edward had always been the negative one, but she...she looked on the brighter side of things. The whole way home she sat in silence, knowing her plan and thankful Edward could not hear her thoughts.
It had only been a week since being home, and she looked six months pregnant. Her belly protruding from her shirt, her pants under the growing mound. Her breasts were tender, the baby moved rapidly and felt like a toddler in there at times. Her little nudger was active. She looked at that as a good thing, the others not so much. Rosalie stayed by her side at all times. Alice was skeptical because her visions became unclear. Alice depended on her visions. Carlisle wanted to keep an open mind, and be hopeful as did most of the rest of the family. Edward...he was pained. Suffering knowing that with each violet turn of the unborn child it hurt her. He blamed himself, angry that he should have known the consequences.
Bella was afraid of what Jacob would say and was scared she'd lose him when he found out. As she laid there trying to stay still to avoid pain. Jacob had proven her wrong on many occasions and this would be one. He didn't like her choice, neither Edward...for once they agreed. Go figure.
When Jake was around, he made her feel content. It was magnetic, the feeling she had to him. When he was away she was uncomfortable and not whole. She rubbed her rounded belly when she was alone and sang to it, talked to it, and knew in her heart if she were to die for this child...it would be worth it. It would be her purpose. Edward would always have a piece of her.
Then, Edward heard his thoughts. Her little EJ loved her back. Her heart swelled to the size of the pacific as she listened to Edward speaking to her belly, happy to see him coming around. She laid cuddled in his arms as they spoke of possible futures. She was determined to fight till she couldn't fight any longer. The taste of human blood to her human taste buds were shockingly appealing. It was only a few years back when the smell of blood nauseated her. Rust...and salt....but now it had a different smell and taste. If that was what he needed, she'd do it. That became her whole diet. If Carlisle was successful in turning her at the last minute, she'd be used to blood at least.
CRACK! Everyone in the room heard it, as her feeble body stood weakly as she reached for the cup of blood. The sharpest pain she'd imagined washed over her like a thousand knives. Her spine had snapped and something in her stomach pained. She let out a muffled moan of pain as she felt her body going down. The only thought running in her head was not to fall on her belly. The next thing she knew she was being hauled into the medical room. "Get him out! Get him out now!!!!" She yelled as she moved her head side to side, fighting the pain. Morphine would not be an option. She felt the cut along her belly as Rose cut the incision, as a scream of pain shot from her mouth. Edward ripped through the hardened vampire like sac that held the child she gripped the sides of the bed with the little strength she had. It seemed like forever, but then.....{baby wails}
Bella sighed and looked around, her eyes hazy and glazed from the pain. Sweat beading her forehead and brow. "It's Renesmee..." His song like voice rang out over the cries. "Renesmee...." she whispered...."Renesmee" As she reached out for her child with weakened arms, smiling down at her beautiful angelic face. Then more pain, as Renesmee bit down on her breast. Edward took Renesmee back as Bella looked on proudly. They were parents....she was healthy and everything....would.....work.....out. Darkness...
Darkness and pain, lots of pain. She refused to cry out. Edward began to inject his venom into her body. She scratched and clawed at her face in her mind, but to the surface laid unresponsive and her heart began to slip. {thump...thump....thump.........thump...............thump.......} It was weak and faint barely beating as she felt the burn and fire run through her veins. Acid filling her throat and she just wanted it to end...let her die, changing her mind at the pain...NO She can't, she had to fight....fight for her....for Edward.....
And that's exactly what she did. Through it all she pushed through and came out on top, for the first time shining.