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Post by Edward Cullen on Jan 24, 2013 12:20:54 GMT -5
The family had been home for a few days now, and it seemed that everyone had gotten back to normal, oh well tried to get back to normal. But Edward could hear the thoughts from his family as he tried to force them out, but they over powered him, almost buckling him, all were concerned about him and Bella. He and Bella had not really had time to be alone together to talk about what happened in Volterra and about what happened before Jane and Alec had turned up, there first fight about her decision to go behind his back and make the deal to join the Volturi to spare his life and the life of their family. He knew why she had done what she did, but it still hurt him that she had not consulted him about it, and it killed him that there was secrets between them. He had seen Nessa their daughter earlier that day as she had decided to go for a walk, and he knew that Bella would be at their home, their haven. As he climbed to the porch and opened the door, slowly creeping inside, he could hear the roaring of the fire place as the wood burnt and nestled in the fireplace.
"Bella?" he called out, unsure if she would speak to him or not.
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Post by Bella Cullen on Jan 24, 2013 15:51:47 GMT -5
The past few days had been a blur. The vampire who created Alice was Aro's brother. That alone was something no one saw coming. In all of his quest for power, she never thought he'd have a brother who was the complete polar opposite of him, unless he was hiding a darker secret and maybe they had reason to be hesitant on accepting him. Alice, Jasper and Henry had gone off to catch up. Renesmee needed time to think alone, get her head together before talking to Jacob. Esme and Carlisle were relieved and also shocked after hearing what had happened, of course Emmett and his recollection of things were entertaining to say the least. He and Rose spent time together alone at their cabin, with Ryder. It seemed everyone just wanted time alone, and Edward had been off by himself for the last few days. Every time they were together with the family all their thoughts just drained him. Their fight was still weighing heavily on her mind...would they ever recover from this. After calling Charlie to check in on him and Sue, she hung up and smiled relieved that something was good...that he was good and okay. Happy actually. It seemed he and Sue were getting closer as a couple. She was happy for her father.
Standing on the pier that overlooked their small pond in the back yard, the peaceful ripple of the water as the sun began to make its descent in the sky. Her arms folded across her chest as she watched, feeling a sense of peace. "Bella?" She heard his voice, that sweet and smooth velvet voice. Unsure if he was still upset with her she turned her head towards the house and spoke, knowing he'd hear. "Out here...." Should she run to him? Wrap her arms around him and never let go...like she so badly wanted to.
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Post by Edward Cullen on Jan 24, 2013 16:08:44 GMT -5
Edward continued to search the house looking for Bella, but only the crisp sound of the fire filled the room, he needed to see her, he couldn't allow things to continue to brew between them, it would only continue to drive a wedge between them further which he didn't want.
"Out here...."
He heard his Bella call out, she was out by the pond, of course that is where she would be, she found it peaceful out there, and so did he when he would go there to find a moment of calm and clarity. Opening the backdoor he stepped out onto the porch and walked towards the pier as Bella stood gazing out onto the rippling pond.
"It's beautiful out here" he whispered, but knew that Bella could hear him.
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Post by Bella Cullen on Jan 24, 2013 16:16:30 GMT -5
She nodded and gave him a warm smile, turning her focus back to the calm waters. Always fighting for one another, fighting to be together through so many trials and tribulations. Now they were just fighting, not in that sense of the word, but he disagreed with her choices, the one she made without him. Had their positions been reversed, he would have done the same that she was certain of.
His footsteps could be heard on the wooden pier when she closed her eyes. What would she say to him? In more times than she could count on her fingers, she was willing to die for Edward or her family...it was just who she was. As much as it hurt her to make that deal with Aro, she did it for him. They were partners together, and she made a decision that affected both of them without consulting him and that's what bugged him. Unsure of what to say to him, she just acknowledged his previous comment. "It reminds me of Isle Esme. The waters..."
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Post by Edward Cullen on Jan 24, 2013 16:42:48 GMT -5
"It reminds me of Isle Esme. The waters..."
He smiled at her comment, he could feel the uneasiness between them and he hated it, he hated feeling that there was this wedge between him. And that Aro had been the one to create it, cause this rift between them. If it had not been for Henry showing up when he did, Bella and Renesmee would be stuck in the guard.
"I remember...I remember that I used to watch you sleep. I used to watch the blush in your cheeks when you would dream. I always wanted to be inside your head for just a minute. I would watch the sun rise and set with you. It felt like home" he smiled.
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Post by Bella Cullen on Jan 24, 2013 16:52:49 GMT -5
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Post by Edward Cullen on Jan 24, 2013 17:02:44 GMT -5
Edward continued to stare out onto the calm waters as he felt himself wrapped in Bella's shield as she played back the memories that she had of their honeymoon on Isle Esme. He watched vividly at her favorite times which made him smile, all the ones that she had chosen were the ones that he considered his favorite.
"I'm sorry...for all of it. Making the decision without you"
Edward let out a heavy sigh as he listened to her, wrapping his hand in her's he offered her a sincere smile.
"I am not angry at you Bella for doing what you did. I am angry that you didn't consult me. That you would put your life at risk for me. That's not how i wanted it to be when you became one of us. I wanted you to grow, Renesmee needs her mother. I promised you i would protect you for ever."
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Post by Bella Cullen on Jan 24, 2013 17:09:52 GMT -5
She felt his hand grasp hers and she looked up at him, searching his eyes. Her shoulders rose in a small laugh at what he said. "We really going to talk about consulting one another? If I remember right, you never told me you were going to Italy. That alone put you in danger...all of us. I didn't exactly have consultation time when I knew they were hurting you. As much as she needs me, she needs you too." She stepped back a bit shaking her head. They never argued...except about things like this. "Edward, you can't protect me all the time....sometimes, I have to protect you too. We protect each other, remember?"
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Post by Edward Cullen on Jan 24, 2013 17:25:55 GMT -5
"Bella I am your husband. It is my job to protect you...no matter what. You may be one of us, but i promised you I would protect you and our family. And yes I know what I did wasn't the smartest thing, but i knew if you came with me Aro would not let you leave. Aro is not one for family Bella. I am surprised even Henry managed to make a deal" he sighed as he leaned forward onto the porch to take on the calm water, this was not how he planned things to go.
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Post by Bella Cullen on Jan 24, 2013 17:51:56 GMT -5
"Aro would like nothing more than to split us up, or have us both in his stupid collection. All of us, the ones with gifts at least. He feels threatened by our family." He stooped down to look at the waters and sighed. Letting her head fall back and groaned. This was getting them no where. Her back was to him as he looked at the waters, the sun almost hidden behind the clouds, illuminating the sky in shades of rusty orange and red, with touches of blue and white.
"Edward, what's happening to us?" She said in barely a whisper. They had the biggest argument when she told him of the deal she made, and he just wouldn't let it go. Henry had saved her from having to do the most horrible thing she could imagine. Now it seemed like he still dwelled on what could have happened.
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Post by Edward Cullen on Jan 24, 2013 18:09:14 GMT -5
"Edward, what's happening to us?"
He wished that he had the answer to her very question, he really did. But he still blamed himself for going to Italy, for putting their family in danger, it was his fault. But yet he had to know if Aro had Renesmee, it was something that he would do.
"Bella...I wished I had all the answers. But I don't! I am not Alice. I can't see the future! I wish I knew that I had never gone to Italy! But i had to know if Aro had our daughter Bella. I promised that i would protect you both. How can i do that if you don't tell what your thinking? What you plan to do next?" he said in a much louder tone as he stood back up and turned to meet her gaze.
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Post by Bella Cullen on Jan 24, 2013 18:16:35 GMT -5
His voice rose after each sentence he spoke, she turned around to face him as he stood, accusing her of planning to do some stupid irrational thing again. Chastising her because of the sacrifice she made when really he'd have done the same without a second thought. He already tried to several times. It was only him who could be the sacrificial lamb. He was willing to die for her, for their daughter...but she couldn't. How fair was that.
She was angry with him, he didn't see her as his equal, he saw her as a fragile human he needed to protect. Their eyes met, she pressed her lips together and narrowed her eyes. "Is--is that what you think? That I'll just run off and make some stupid mistake again, try to get killed, just because...I don't know, because I'm bored." For as stubborn as he was, she was even more stubborn. She wanted him to see that she could very well indeed fend for herself, that she could protect him sometimes.
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Post by Edward Cullen on Jan 24, 2013 18:24:54 GMT -5
"That I'll just run off and make some stupid mistake again, try to get killed, just because...I don't know, because I'm bored."
That really irritated Edward, how could she be so blunt about it all? True that was one of the many things that he loved about Bella, but sometimes he wished that she would just stop and think about things before she acted out.
"Bella...I just wished you would have told me! I already hate not knowing what you think! We are meant to be partners in this...together. And not going off and made that decision that affected us all in this. I would have told you....That's what we do! Can't you understand that?" he questioned her.
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Post by Bella Cullen on Jan 24, 2013 18:30:47 GMT -5
She shook her head, he still didn't get it. He still thought she did it intentionally. The pain in her heart was almost unbearable. They never were not able to come to common ground. He raised his voice, his eyes focused on hers. Both of them trying to get the other to understand.
Scoffing a bit at his inability to realize it all, she spat out. "Oh, I'm sure Aro would have given me a moment to interrupt Jane to consult you on my decision." With that she remembered Aro's sneer grin when she realized Edward was being tortured, and the only way to save him was to give herself to him....or fight. She left that part out before, but remembered it clear as day. It was her life or his...or both. One of them had to go back to Renesmee, or she would have joined them in their demise or torture. Watching his face, praying he realized what she was trying to tell him.
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Post by Edward Cullen on Jan 24, 2013 18:38:50 GMT -5
"You know...when Jane and Alec were torturing me...All I could think about was you...and Renesmee. All i wanted was to see you one last time. Then when you came in...I thought I saw an angel...that after all that i did, there you were" he paused as he took her hand into his own, trying to think of the right words, but he found it hard to tell her.
"I would have given everything for you to be safe, to keep our family safe. And to have spent 100 years without you. It would have been my worst nightmare. I hate that we argue, i hate that we fight" he whispered.
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